hi.

first time

phenomenal.

sephora, how I love thee.

today I went to Sephora to spend my $15 gift card I won for getting the most people to sign up for emails at my work. The customer service was outstanding, the products are always great, and I found a lot of great deals. .33 oz of Harajuku Lovers perfume in G for $15! I also spend a bit of my own money on some skin care products, but I feel I got nmore than my money's worth because I got so many free samples. I think ten altogether.
My salesperson, Sarah, was very helpful and kind, and I hope she gets paid well because the girl is good at her job. I told her a coworker of mine told me to join the beauty insider group and she was excited about it. At the checkout, she gave me the samples the beauty insiders were getting from bareessentials (a deluxe trial size of their new matte foundation and a free mini brush w/a coupon for a free baby buki brush with purchase of a foundation). I left with hella skin care products, samples to use for weeks and weeks, and the cutest bottle of perfume.
I'm looking forward to earning rewards with their card, and I look forward to shopping at that Sephora again. Always a great experience.

a few small pieces of paper.

I realized what it is I want to do with my life, at least for the next couple years, and that something is work with kids who are having similar challenges to the ones I encountered in high school. I want to be some kind of after-school activity director and I want to do that for my old high school. This is pretty much what I think would make me happier than anything, and so yesterday, I sent my old principal an email explaining how I would love to work with the school on that program. I don't know if that's at all reasonable, or if he's goi ng to say, "go to college a few years, then we'll talk." I really hope not. so, I'm crossing my fingers. wish me luck.
in other news, the 80's dance party last night was fun and I had a good time with Sam. a lot of people half hit on him, which wasn't too cool, but whatever. I know he's a very attractive young man, and since all the girls there were straight and the boys gay, it was to be expected. I guess just after Kyle wanting to fuck my guy friend a year or so back, it kinda killed my whole hope for the best thing? I just get nervous.
I've been cheated on once, and told that they wanted to cheat once.
Thanks, dudes.

Right now I'm in Sam's living room, at the dining table and eating rice pudding. Just had eggs and toast. Lactose intolerance kicking in. Oh, joy.

Hey, elastic waisted mom-jeans are only $9.99 at bi-mart right now. Go get a membership.
<3

try, try, try

the least I could do was ask.
so I did.
I sent my old principal an email requesting some kind of job in the school, working with the after-school program.
it's my dream job, and I Don't know if I can, but I would love to.
I feel useless and stupid and if I could just do something that made me happy, I would be....
happy.
I'd just be happy.