does it show?

I am having a good day. Though I've been waking up with these terrible stomach aches due to anxiety, I'm happy. Not like, content, but HAPPY. I haven't felt happy in a while. I felt like I was on my way to happiness, but now I feel like I've reached it. I mean. Not totally, of course. I still have no money and I have a roommate who hates me. But I feel like I've moved forward. In fact I feel slightly disrespectful of my relationship with Sam because I got over it so quickly. I mean, I loved him, but, not in the way that healthy relationships have love. I loved him with patience and adoration but without understanding or feeling adored. I knew we wouldn't last forever. Honestly, I'll miss his family/friends very much. They were pretty much the foundation of our relationship. And Pai Mei, the cat who kept walking on our faces while we were breaking up.
I have Winifred here though.
She has taken to liking me again.
Sort of.

I'm really nervous about what this little slice of life is going to be like, but I'm looking forward to it, nonetheless.

If you want to understand it a bit more, go here.

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